Due Date

This week has been a little emotional for me and I can't help thinking what it would of been like to be full term right now? I keep asking myself how big my belly would be at 40 weeks?

I wounder how James (my husband) would be freaking out by now? I wounder how our parents would be impatiently waiting for their new addition to our family?

I a wish I could stop wondering what it will never be because my butterfly is gone. Luke was what kept me holding on to Hope and now I am forcing to keep holding on to hope.

Saturday November 20,2010 was suppose to be the day that we meet our baby boy Luke and although we got to meet him way sooner that this coming Saturday I can't help thinking how he would of looked at 40 weeks vs. 23 weeks and 2 days.

I miss him so much every day that passes by but I am still proud to be his mother. I know I will never get to baptise him, see his first steps, hear his first word and I will never get to take him on his first day of school.

All I know is that one day will grant me the honor to see my two blue butterflies in heaven and that day will be the Happiest day of my of my new life.

My blue butterflies

Today i have been thinking about my little blue butterflies in heaven. I miss them both so much every day of my life and although I will see them one day I can't stop thinking on the what ifs?

I am so proud to be their mother and even though it was for a short period of time I am so thankful for it.

I am thankful for the great father that my butterflies have. He is such a great and caring husband.

I am thankful for my mother's great example of being a strong mother and giving up everything for your children.

I am thankful for my family and their great support though all of this journey that we have gone through.

I am thankful to God for my blue butterflies :)